This is a lesson that apparently is taking me a long time to learn. It seems that God has been trying to teach me this lesson for at least 8 years now. Or maybe that's when I started hearing it? But just because someone hears something does not guarantee that they are listening. Kind of like..."Take out the trash!" or "Clean your room" or "Stop aggravating your brothers!" I know my kids HEAR me. After all of our medical ear issues, I have the audiology reports to prove it! But listening and obeying...well there's another issue altogether. I know this comes as a shock to most, but I kind of like things to be predictable and familiar. Couple that with my extreme loyalty issues and my slight desire to feel like things are in my control, change isn't always so welcome in my life. So when I read things in Proverbs like "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight," I tend to get a little anxious. When seasons started changing for me after Nathyn was born, I was reluctant. But God proved himself faithful. Then a couple years later we were assigned to an Air Force Base in California. I was reluctant again. After all, didn't God know that Travis was the LAST base listed on our "wish list" of assignments?? But again, God proved himself faithful in an exceeding abundant kind of way by blessing us with church, school, and friends...who are now family:) And yet again in June, I found myself facing another change of season. Knowing God's faithfulness many times in the past, why in the world was I still resistant to this change? Why couldn't I trust that God has things in control even when I do not? I knew this was leaving friends, church, school...familiar and comfortable. Not to mention that this would take me out of a classroom that I loved so much and away from people that I could not imagine being without. And even scarier...HOMESCHOOLING my kids, which I have adamantly said I could/would never do! (After all, that puts me SOLELY responsible for my kids' education. That, to me, is a very scary thought.) Having few no other acceptable educational options for my kids here, I gave in. So why am I so stinkin' surprised that God is proving himself faithful for the millionth time?
What an awesome week, and what an awesome God!
One week down...8 months to go!
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